The crowd is cheering your name. They are waiting in expectation as you get closer, Closer, and CLOSER to the finish line. You feel like you are on cloud nine. Your heart is full of pride. It is full of determination. You suddenly boost your confidence to the max. You look around you. You see the competition. You see the speed of the runner beside you. It intimidates you. It weakens you. You suddenly loose your focus. Suddenly, you hit the ground. You collapse. This happens at the very moment, you could’ve WON. You don’t reach the finish line. However, it is not the END.
Instead of getting back up, you choose to stay down. You look around you only to see people accomplishing what you set out to do. You feel embarrassed. You feel HOPELESS. You ask yourself, “why should I even try?” So, you never get back up. You never hold on to HOPE. You choose to GIVE UP. Does this sound familiar? Is this you right now? Just know you are not alone. This use to be me for a few years after I fail flat of my face. Do you know why you fall? You fail in order to LEARN. You learn to GROW. You grow to BECOME who God made you to be.
For a few weeks, I have kind of been like the runner in the scenario above. A few years ago , I fell due to my own insecurity and pride. I started to keep my eyes on everything around me, instead of Jesus. I became intimidated. I became weakened. I stopped running the race. I fail flat of my face. I felt I could never try again. I literally GAVE UP. I have been questioning my purpose ever since that experience. During, this time God taught me so much from what I saw as failure. He taught me before there is SUCCESS, failure happens. Failure happens to get your heart in the RIGHT place. God can not use you until the impurities are cleansed out of your heart. PRIDE has to fall so HUMILITY can rise up.
God uses the humble servant, not the prideful person. Sometimes, one does not know they have pride, until God shows them. He does this by allowing them to fall. It is when they fall, God teaches them to be humble. It is through humility, you obtain your true God given purpose. Through this , God leads you to your DESTINY.
Last night, I had a very REAL and life like dream. It began, in a high school environment. There was a huge stadium that was filled to overflowing. There was a basketball court and a game going on. The announcer was announcing the players. He then got to me. My team was dressed in purple and gold. I was number twenty-seven. I came out. The crowd erupted cheering my name. Suddenly, the game starts. My team is doing well. I make many shots, but then I’m passed the ball in the heat of the moment. I jump to make a slam-dunk and come crashing down on my knee. I hear the referee shouting, “she’s down.” Immediately, I see Jesus come down and take me up. He takes me up and shows me various rooms , all filled with people. He then takes me to a separate room. He shows me books I have authored. He looks and smiles. Suddenly, he speaks, “YOU MUST FINISH THE RACE.” Dream ends. I wake up.
The dream represents my life. God designed me to stand out for Him. However, my own pride caused me to come crashing down. Pride is a representation of the slam-dunk. I could’ve just passed the ball to my team mate. However, I let people intimidate me. I became competitive. I was insecure in who God made to be. I chose to instead be what others wanted me to be. This caused me to come crashing down on my knee. Knee represents stability. Stability is taken out when pride comes in. Jesus coming down and picking me up represents His amazing grace. He showed me the real purpose. He did this when He brought me in the rooms full of people. Our ultimate purpose is being used for His service. In this case, my purpose is being a writer for Him.
The main thing that stood out were the final words He spoke to me before I woke up. He said, “You must FINISH THE RACE.” He was speaking to me, that my life was not yet done. I still had purpose. I had to finish what He started in me. He covers ALL my mistakes with His amazing GRACE. I cannot finish the RACE known as life, without FAITH in who He is and who He made me to be. My motives had to change. I had to become HUMBLE. He taught me humility during the time I was down. I learned so much during this time. As I learned, I GREW. I am also in the process of BECOMING who God made me to be. I can’t give up. I must choose to dust myself off. Put my past BEHIND me. Apply what I was taught during the season I was down. Get back up and FINISH the RACE!
I believe this dream was also a MESSAGE to you all. God is speaking to everyone of you. No matter what you have done. No matter what has happened to you. No matter how many times you have FAILED. No matter if no one BELIEVES in you. You have to FINISH THE RACE. There are people who NEED you. They need what’s INSIDE of you. Everything that you have been through has PURPOSE. It was to TRAIN and EQUIP you for His service. Your life is not over. Keep running the RACE of FAITH. He will give the STRENGTH that is needed to complete your MISSION on this earth
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